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Affirmations August 24, 2010

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For over a month now, Matthew has been saying over and over throughout the day…..


Not a huge surprise. He called me mommy almost right from the start.

He says it so much–as he walks through the house, while playing. He doesn’t say it in a questioning manner or like he is calling to me. It is a statement, a mantra.

What is it, Buddy?
What do you need?
I have responded.

He never gives me a definite answer. But minutes later, I hear….


At a loss, the other day, I finally just answered…..


And he beamed at me. Mommy, he repeated. Matthew, I responded. I finally found the response he was looking for. He didn’t need food, water, help or toys. Just an affirmation. Yes, I am mommy. Yes, you are Matthew.

So we do this throughout the day.


Yes, I say, and he rubs my face, Yes, I am mommy.

But what he is hearing is more than just the words. This is an affirmation for him. Before, Mommy was just a word. A new, foreign word that meant ME–this woman who was suddenly around all the time. But now he is realizing Mommy means love. Mommy means a safe place. Mommy is forever. And he likes to be reassured about this throughout the day.

Mommy. Matthew. Forever.
Repeat as needed.


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Just a Different Kind of Awful

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Today I got to talk to a friend of mine who has also recently adopted a toddler from Korea. As many of you APs out there know, it is such a relief to be able to talk to someone who is having the same kind of experiences as you. We were discussing some of the issues we have faced with our boys in the recent months.

I have to admit, things are getting better around here all the time. Matthew is thriving in preschool and I see some breakthroughs happening. One MAJOR success we have celebrated lately is that 2 nights ago, he woke up in the middle of the night and said, “Mommy, drop it.”

Doesn’t sound like such a big deal?

Well for 9 months, if he needed anything at all at night or whenever he woke up in the morning, he would do one of two things. He would scream hysterically or he would go, “EEHHHHHHHHHHHH” at top volume. How very pleasant to be woken up or greeted in the morning. I called it is “morning EHHHHHHHHHHH”. So when he woke up at 4 AM and said, “Mommy, drop it”, I knew that he had dropped his teddy bear on the floor. I was shocked….and thrilled.

So yes, we are making big strides. At the same time, there are some issues that concern us. Namely, anger. I see some anger issues in Matthew that raise a red flag for me–I won’t get too specific because that part isn’t important, but I think that this is something that we are going to be working on with him for a very long time….possibly something that he will struggle with throughout his life.

Lots of kids have anger issues, you might say. You can’t necessarily blame it on adoption. That’s true.

Except when I described this issue to my friend today, she confirmed that her son has reactions that are eerily the same in similar situations…..right down to body language, facial expressions and the amount of time it lasts.

My friend was explaining this (along with some other issues she was concerned about) to someone at her adoption agency. This woman was shocked. She said that she might expect things like this from “those Russian kids” but not Korea!! After all, isn’t the Korean system one of the very best?

Of course, foster care is WAY more preferable to orphanage care. There is absolutely no doubt about that and if a biological family is not there, then another family environment filled with love and meeting of the child’s needs is essential. VITAL. But these kids from Korea aren’t coming home at 5-9 months of age anymore. And by saying that I, in no way, am saying that children adopted at 5-9 months of age are immune from problems…..or am I saying that children adopted at an older age are doomed for life.

Even “healthy” referrals from Korea are coming home at 14 months and older. Of COURSE they are angry. Sometimes I think about children leaving the orphanages. TRAUMATIC, yes. But there is at least the small upside of finally getting nutrition, attention, love. Our (Korean) kids are yanked from what they all believe to be their families. Both situations bring with it their very own set of issues.

Attachment disorders, developmental delays.
Anger, mistrust.

Yes, I absolutely thank God every day that my son was blessed to be placed in a loving foster home, but parents adopting from Korea shouldn’t think that these optimal conditions make their child immune to all of the scary issues that come along with adopting.

And no, this post isn’t anti-international adoption….in any way! Although I do think that it should only be a last resort.

Orphanage? Foster care?

In the end, it all equals being taken away by strangers to a strange land.

One might seem better than the other, but if you look at it from our children’s perspective, it’s just a different kind of awful.


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