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Something’s Cooking July 31, 2012

Filed under: goals — Elizabeth @ 8:54 PM

I am attempting to resurface from an unintentional blog hiatus.  At first I wasn’t blogging because we were just too busy being lazy.  This summer has been glorious!  The first half of the summer was spent in our pajamas, coloring and doing puzzles, hanging at the library and spending time with friends.

The second half of the summer has been busier, but no less enjoyable.  And we leave in a few days for a beach vacation.  One last hurrah before school starts.

We have less than 3 weeks until kindergarten starts and it seems like for a year people have been asking me, “What are you going to DO when they start school??”.  As if I am magically going to have a new and grand plan for my life.  Some way to suck up all of the free time.  And I’ve balked at that.  I’m busy enough.  I have plenty to do, I thought.  I’m going to drink coffee slowly and clean my house in peace.  And that’s fine.  And I may still do just that.  Besides, there just wasn’t anything I loved enough to want to devote all of my extra time to.

Until now.

A few months ago, I wrote a post about how much I’ve changed in the past two years.  And the funny thing is that I feel like I’ve continued to change even in the days and weeks since writing the post.  Something new is growing in my desires for the direction I want my life to go and the things that really fulfill me.

Maybe the change is that for the first time in as long as I can remember, I have goals that are only about me.

Or maybe the difference is the upcoming freedom I am facing.

Or maybe, just maybe, many circumstances from the past few years–things that I didn’t understand at all–were really just a way of God molding me and preparing me for something….something he knew was coming the whole time.

{He is pretty sneaky like that, you know.}

I keep waiting for my close family and friends to say, “girl, this is nuts”.  Cause I kinda think it is.  But they don’t.  So either, I’m on the right track, or nobody has the guts to tell me I’m crazy.

Anyway, the fact of the matter is that now, I have a plan.  I have plans.  Plans that were not born out of desperation because someone told me I needed to have a plan (those are the worst kind).  These plans bloomed suddenly and surprisingly out of a passion of mine (pretty sure those are the best kind).    Do you know that feeling where you work all day and at the end of the day, you’re exhausted, but not in a terrible way, but a wonderfully fulfilled way?  That’s how I’ve been feeling lately, which is pretty darn awesome if you ask me.

I promise I don’t mean to be so cryptic, but before I spill the beans, I am trying to make sure that my plans and God’s plans are lining up perfectly.

Don’t worry, I’ll let you in on it soon enough.  I probably am nuts.  But I’m a really adorable nutcase.

And no.  This has nothing to do with adding more children to our family.  I’m may be nuts but I’m not insane 🙂

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